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Saturday, March 14th, 2009
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It's been a very long time since I've posted in this.
Since then I've gotten married, moved, and I'm working (although not full time at the moment).
I read a lot of my old entry just to remember the life I used to have.
It's weird to think all that happened to me.
I do miss those days to an extent. I miss all my friends and all the fun I used to have.
Life sure changes when you graduate from school and have to really live out in the world.
Well anyway, I might start this puppy up again since it's a nice outlet for my thoughts and words.
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Saturday, October 8th, 2005
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I haven't updated this thing in over a YEAR!!!!
Things have changed drastically.
I graduated from Western Kentucky Univesity December of 2004, moved in with my boyfriend, moved to Lexington (Kentucky) back in February of 2005, and I'm working full time selling shoes in Dillard's. It's not fabulous or anything but it feeds me and gets the bills paid.
OH and I have a kitty and his name is Bert. It feels good to have a pet that will lick my face when I'm sleeping or sleep on me which makes me feel loved.
Johnnie and I are going strong. We're both working full time and have 1 car between the 2 of us. It makes things tricky, but we do ok.
I've become rather boring, but it's not all bad I suppose.
I was invited to go party with some people I work with. It was a "going away" outing for a co-worker who is moving and leaving the store. I didn't end up going because I worked about 10 hrs with no break today. I'm beat and sore so I'm gonna be lazy tonight with my boy and my kitty.
Alas, this brief update is complete.
Not much to say but it's been said.
I miss talking to everyone I used to, so if you haven't talked to me in awhile drop me a line sometime.
I miss EVERYONE!!
~Lindsay :)
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I stole this from Becki's livejournal...too funny to not put in here.
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Ok so a couple of weeks ago I set out on a 5 day long adventure.
I left here on Tuesday afternoon. I went up to spend the day and night with Johnnie.
Good times. We left on Wednesday to go to Bowling Green. It didn't take nearly as long as I thought it might. It was a good trip. We went to the mall so I could pick up my final paycheck. Picked up some grubbage and went to Josh's house where we were staying for the night. Had a lot of fun with Josh and Ginger. We woke up somewhat early the next morning because we were supposed to meet up with Elise, Linda, and Richard @ 10am. I got a call that said they were running an hour and a half late so after sitting around talking for a bit, we went to get food. They were nearly here so we grabbed food, rushed back to Josh's, met up with them at the mall, had them follow us back to Josh's to leave my jeep, and then we headed out on yet another greenwheel roadtrip.
It took us awhile as usual to get up to St Louis. Long trip but good times as always until the radio's speakers went out, and the fact that is was raining and the windshield whipers didn't work. Minor things I guess. I just enjoyed the time I got to spend with my friends and Johnnie. So yay for me. We stopped off at the hotel just to dump our stuff then we left for The Enigma Lounge. We got there and of course no one was there so we went out and got some food. Came back and stood in line for a not too long. We went in and they had some DJ's spinning (it was interesting). We sat talking and stuff til finally greenwheel got onstage. The new stuff we hadn't heard already was GREAT, the stuff we'd heard already was GREAT, and they played Identity and The End. It was a VERY good show. Talked to Ryan and Andy a bit. Apparently they are playing a show at the end of June or beginning of July. Ryan basically said that we had to come so I guess we will. Should be fun to go up there with everyone again.
We woke up and left St Louis at about 12pm that day. We made it back to Bowling Green, said our goodbyes, Johnnie and I picked up some food, filled up my jeep with gas, then headed to his house. We ended up getting there at about 1am so I just stayed up there for the night. It would have sucked to have tried to find my way back home in the dark and as tired as I was. I'm glad I did tho, it gave me more time to spend with Johnnie so I was happy. It was hard to leave, but I had to. It was a long drive home.
Since I've been home I've been kinda bored. Not much going on. I'm working on spending a weekend hanging with Johnnie again as long as my dad and mom don't freak out and tell me no. I've told my mom but she said to tell my dad and I dunno how he's gonna react...I haven't even told him about Johnnie. DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well, I'm not too worried about it actually. I just have to say "this is what I'm doing just so you know" and not worry about it.
That was quite a lengthy update I'd say. Can't really think of anything else...
I'm just happy. No school for awhile, finally getting some sleep, spending time in the sun, and having a guy that's truely wonder and I care a ton for. Life ain't so bad...I have all I need.
If I left anything out guys...let me know. I swear my mind is going...well going more than usual haha.
Hopefully my life will get more exciting and I'll have more to write about later.
Til then...
Take care, be safe and happy everyone!!!!!! <3<3<3<3<3 xxxxxxxx *MUAH*
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| Subject: | Overloaded... |
| Time: | 10:16 am. |
| Mood: |  contemplative. | | Music: | Against My Better Judgement ~ Futher Seems Forever. |
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It's the 10am and I'm sitting here contemplating(sp?) all that is my life.
I got about 3 & 1/2 hrs of sleep last night. I couldn't stop shaking and thinking and crying. I hate to get upset like that, to where I just can't control my emotions, no matter how much someone tries to make me feel better. I don't want to feel hurt anymore because that's not how I want to live. I don't want to hurt anyone even tho it seems more and more lately I do and it's the people I care most about. I want to be more than just this person who helps everyone but can't even help herself.
After today I won't have school or work to deal with for awhile. That'll help some. I'm still dreading going home. Hopefully I can be out of the house as much as possible. I just want to go out and be happy.
I'm still trying to decide if I should go to Priscilla's wedding or not. I don't feel like she wants me there. People tell me things that she should be telling me. I've known Priscilla since the 2nd grade and now it's as if I don't know her at all. If I do go I don't want to go on my own. I think Tim Jones said it was on May 15th, so that gives me a little time to figure something out.
*sigh*
Too much Further Seems Forever isn't really helping...
"Against My Better Judgement"
With starving appetites for arguments
You remind me of a secret
I was never suppose to tell
The time is up - the veredict’s in
Everybody’s right - everybody wins
Didn’t you know you were a saint
What a shameful fall from grace
But I’ll catch you
Everybody’s waiting for
That something they can hold on to
While tripping over our own words
To self-dug graves for an excuse to fall
Cause every failure’s
Just as sweet as the last
As a dream comes
When there are many cares
So the speech of a fool
When there are many words
The sun it misses summer in winter
Didn’t you know we wear the same
The same pretentious name
Let’s trade for awhile - I’m so curious
"I Am"
I am the water
I am waves crashing on to you
I am the blank wave
I am the madness the loss the dark
The hunt the cage the race
I am rejection I am redemption
I am desire for obligation
I am forever but I can be never
If that’s what you want
I am the desert I am oasis
The strength
The weakness for arguments sake
I am one step closer for you
Please tell me when you’re through
Cause I may not be through with you
Your loss to sustain
But I will remain and true to form
If this were
The last breath I ever took
Would you take the time to look
And would you know
You could protect me
But you will kill me
When you’re through
That is the end of Further Seems Forever is making Lindsay sad theater.
Join us next time when we might just learn "How To Start A Fire".
For now I'll exit stage left,
Hope to hear an encore call me back.
To feel wanted on this low lite stage of life,
To just feel.
Wipe away the saline sadness,
Before it soaks my pillowcase.
I care too much to lay here now,
I care too much to walk away.
I don't always understand,
This pain that you feel,
The way you see this world,
But I try to because I want to.
We both have a meaning,
We both have a purpose,
We can't only help ourselves,
We can help eachother.
I'll reach out my hand,
It's for you to take if you want it.
Pain doesn't have to last forever,
If nothing else know that I care.
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Tuesday, April 27th, 2004
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| Subject: | *sigh* |
| Time: | 3:00 pm. |
| Mood: |  depressed. | | Music: | How to Start A Fire ~ Futher Seems Forever. |
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When the winds blow past me I lose my way
Distracted from reality watching the trees sway
Far from this life that brings me down
Yet I know that things don't get better by running away.
The past isn't the present but it rings in your ear
It's something not to dwell on but it's something we hear
Not always proud of what we do and things we regret
Neither is living for the future with things we fear.
I can see the fire that's in your eye
I know flames are fed by what I can not deny
A split second can effect an entire lifetime
Burning down the pages of our lives isn't a way to get by.
Sitting by the window looking out into the space
Makes my mind go into overdrive thinking how I ended up in this place
Sorry doesn't heal all wounds or get rid of the pain
I understand how you feel I can't even look at my own face.
I don't know what more to say.
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Ok so there used to be this cartoon called Kidd Video and I loved it as a kiddo.
I found a site for it the other night and found the theme song...
I wanted to share these jacked up 80's lyrics with ya.
"Video to Radio"
Yeah!
It's getting me going
It's keeping me moving on
Hooked on my system
I'm playing on and on
People say I'm crazy
'Cause I'm always on my own
Hi-fi's around me
Hi-tech just turns me on
From my video to my radio
And I know what you're thinking
This Kidd is up a tree
But I'm not so crazy
Come on and follow me
Oh I'll keep on grooving
Here with my Groove Machine
I'll keep on moving
Soon you'll see what I mean
From my video to my radio
And I'm flying this til I get bored, oh....
Close Encounters with the alien storm
It's getting me rocking
It's keeping me moving on
I feel like flying
I'm totally off the wall
I'm simply saying
It's the only way to go... whoa!
From my video to my radio
And I've got this vision
The colors are changing fast
My system's hot now
I know it's going to last
People say I'm crazy
'Cause I'm always on my own
Hi-fi's around me
Hi-tech just turns me on
From my video to my radio
And I'm flying this til I get bored, oh....
Close Encounters with the alien storm
It's getting me rocking
It's keeping me moving on
I feel like flying
I'm totally off the wall
I'm simply saying
It's the only way to go... whoa!
From my video to my radio
From my video to my radio, Oh!
Video to radio, video to radio.... Oh!
Vid-e-o... to video...
Video to radio, (video) video to radio, video to radio
Yeah...it's interesting stuff innit?
I might share some more of the songs from this show.
I have a couple of episodes on video...I used to rock to them all the time.
Nothing much to really add...
Worked a ton this weekend, still haven't done a important paper, saw a movie tonight.
WOO!!
Oh well, later!!
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Ok those made me laugh...more later maybe.
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Blue gummie bears are funky
Purple gummie bears rock
Green gummie bears are cool
Orange gummie bears will do
Yellow gummie bears are pookie poo
Yes I am just that bored.
No really I've been eating these crazy "Techno Bears" gummie bears.
I got 'em for free from work. All that is left are the blue ones. They are indeed funky and I don't really like them that much, but I wanted something fruity so I had no other choice. *shakes fist* Stupid gummies!!
There nuffin' on the telly-vision. Well this is some odd cartoon on one of the SCOLA channels. I dunno where this if from...Croatia, Japan, China, Brazil...I dunno. But there is a tiger and a cat and the cat is trying to help the tiger be more domesticated. Don't ask why I'm watching because honestly I couldn't tell you.
Random thoughts:
1)I must go see Garfield the movie when it comes out. It looks very funny and I love Garfield.
2)It's very warm outside. This is a great thing because it means summer is oh so close.
3)No more gummie bears for a week...or so.
4)The Discovery Channel should be called Crazy Interesting Channel of Stuff or CICOS for short.
5)School is nearly over...this is both a good thing and a bad thing. (for more information contact me).
AND LASTLY...
6)Pringles rock, even in dreams :)
Ok so this is all for now.
I'm gonna sleep for like 30 mins and try to dream cause that's fun.
Later,
Linds :)
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Saturday, April 10th, 2004
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| Subject: | Maybe |
| Time: | 3:16 am. |
| Mood: |  happy. | | Music: | Disconnected ~ Celebrity. |
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What have I done lately?
A lot and yet not much at all.
Working, schooling, feeling sick, thinking about the summer and all that jazz.
I've been out the past 2 nights. Nothing spectacular but nothing horrible either.
I saw lostprophets a few weeks ago, that was great. Good times I tell ya, good times. I talked to Lee and Stu but that was it. Was very very very very cool tho.
Late nights and early mornings...that's been life lately and I enjoy every second of it. I'm happy. Simple as. Nothing more to say.
Later,
Linds :)
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Spring Break starts TODAY!!
Seeing lostprophets tomorrow night.
Can't WAIT!!!!!!!!
Who knows what will happen in the next few days.
Whatever does, I'll put up in here...well I might put it up in here.
It's going to be awesome, I can feel it.
Rock on, peace out, and spread the love!!!!!!
Can't wait to see lostprophets, my GA friends, but I'm gonna miss people while I'm away. I'll be back sooooooooon.
I can't write anymore cause I'm just too excited to think.
I'll see and talk to everyone soon.
*hugs**kisses*
Lindsay :)
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Saturday, March 13th, 2004
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I haven't updated in awhile.
Nothing much to blah blah about really.
School is going along ok, I love my Marketing on the World Wide Web class. Made a site that ain't too shabby.
Work is going. I don't work as much as I once did. Kinda sucks cause I could use the money for my roadtrips and whatnot.
What else is there???
Oh yeah, I'm finally gonna get to see the lostprophets!!!!!!! I think haha. I'm going to get tix for the Atlanta show tomorrow. I think I'm gonna skip out on the Chattanooga date just so I can save a few bucks gaswise and ticketwise.
I'm still working out the details and I only have til Friday to get it all worked out. Cause next week is SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm excited for what spring break might bring. Might be a really fun time for me. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.
I'm really missing sleeper7 lately. I am also totally loving Cave In, Jenoah, the new lostprophets cd, Open Hand, and sooooooooo many more. Rock on my friends...til next time we meet...Spread the love ~Lindsay :)
OH YEAH...I HAVEN'T SLEPT ALL NIGHT!!!!! I'm a little hyper crazy fun right now.
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Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
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New lostprophets' cd out today.
It's good, go pick it up now!!
This is my third time listening to it all the way through.
I bought the new Incubus but I haven't even listened to it once due to the fact that I can't stop listening to new lps. Yes I know that's a little much but hey I like it so that's all that matters to me.
What's been going on with me you ask? Hmm, I say, nothing much to be honest.
I'm going to see greenwheel on Friday. I'm driving Kyle and myself up there, then we're meeting up with Linda, Dusty, & Charley and the whole Jillian's crew of people. I get to see my friend Ashley from Indiana!!!!!! Way excited, haven't seen her in forever and a day. Can't wait for good times, good friends, and greenwheel!!
It's gonna be fun time and I got a few shirts to pick from to wear. Good times.
I did buy the lostprophets cd today, the incubus cd, a tank top, button down shirt, WKU hoodie, and 2 other shirts, one of which I'll be wearing to greenwheel. I got paid today too. Very exciting to see that check in my hands. mmm money to see bands and stuff. YAY.
I'm really not that excited, I'm not I SWEAR YO!!
Ok, so I am...sue me...I like what I like and that's all there is to it.
Fun will be had or heads will roll I SAY...rollin' rollin' rollin' :)
Ok I think everyone has had enough of my mindless babbling for the time being.
Even if you haven't, I'm all out for right now. Keep refreshing this page and maybe more will pop up outta nowhere...who knows? It could work in some alternate universe. IT COULD...maybe...I dunno...it's time for sleep or something.
Much love,
Lindsay :)
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Sunday, January 25th, 2004
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I'm just sitting around listening to Acceptance after a not so bad weekend.
Friday was pretty boring. I went with Ginger to the bookstore, then we went to my room and just sat around talking and whatnot. Ended up hanging out with Chris and Armondo next door. We watched a movie, got pizza, then Stephanie and Chelsey from down the hall came over and we all played cards...was interesting.
Saturday I met up with Ginger, we saw The Butterfly Effect. It was a very different movie but very good as well. Ashton Kutcher does pretty well in a serious role. After the movie we got some food, talked about random stuff, then went into work. We both had to close, which was much better than having to do it on my own.
Sunday I got up late, we'd had something of an ice storm during the night. The ice had already begun to melt. My mom actually woke me up to tell me how bad it is at home. Then when I went back to sleep(because yes I was being lazy), my friend Priscilla called me to tell me our friend Shelley's birthday party was tonight and that I should come with her. So I agreed. Up to that point, however, I did a lot of nothing. I took a shower, got some lunch, then just kinda hungout here. Then I went to Shelly's, saw her and a bunch of people I haven't seen in over a year. Was an interesting event.
That brings us to the here and now.
I've got my jammies on, I'm sitting with my "cool" red jacket on. Times aren't too bad, but there are a couple of things that could make this night better. I'm not holding my breath though.
Acceptance rocks you all!!
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Monday, January 19th, 2004
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The first week of classes...
Interesting to say the least.
Tons have gone on this week.
You know you wanna know what...but I'm not saying.
It's one of those events where stuff has happened but since I don't want to jinx anything I'm keeping most of it to myself for now. Well except for a few of you that I've talked to.
I did drop a class. It was insane!! If you want more detail ask, I've been telling everyone about it and am all told out! It's better when told in realtime and not via my lj.
Right now I'm jamming to Aconite Thrill's E.R.N.I.E ...it's cool yo.
And now I'm listening to Kaddisfly's Manhattan Loves You and I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!
So anywhoit...
Don't know what I'm doing this week other than working.
Hopefully something fun will come around.
I'm seeing greenwheel February 6th...if I get around to getting my ticket.
Wanted to go see Thursday in Nashville but they sold out before I got tix...*sniffle*
I'm going to try to keep my lj updated...if at all possible.
So look for more updates from me...I know you are all dying to know of my life.
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Saturday, January 10th, 2004
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It's been WAY too long since I've updated.
I've been here and there.
Seen a few bands...here and there.
Had a decent Christmas and a not horrible but not wonderful New Year.
I really need to sleep at the moment or I'd write a huge novel of an update.
I just can't right now.
I do start back to class on Monday...but not until 11:15am. I'm so happy to not have an 8am class AT ALL!!!!!
I will have a night class which I'm sure I'll hate since it's a Business writing course. That is not going to be fun at all. I have 15 hours this semester and if all goes well I'll graduate in December of this year. Which is both an exciting and very scary thought for me right now.
I've got so much on my mind and heart right now. If anyone were to study me right now, they'd probably think I'd lost my mind and have me seek professional help. No I haven't really lost my mind, there's just so much to think about. My mind's going a mile a minute and I'm telling myself things that might not be true.
Oh well, as I always say "things will work out!!"
Today was my first day back to work since 2 days before Christmas. Nothing new with good ol Candy Craze. Although for the first time in a very long time I didn't eat anything in that store or even have a little bit of an Icee. I was so proud of myself. I'm going to lose weight somehow. I'm starting by not eating so many gummi strawberries at work. I'm going to be doing more than just that but I don't have an actual plan.
Tomorrow I'm going to Owensboro. I'm gonna go see my friend Howie's band play at CommonGround. If you're around Owensboro, KY come down for the show. Doors @ 7, Show @ 8. Hopefully it'll be really fun.
Sunday I open and close the store. I'm going to be so tired...like I am right now.
I'm trying to think if anything really important happened...
David, the drummer from Revis, remembered me in Atlanta which really shocked me. Was really cool though. Went to St Louis' VH1 Save the Music event back in December. It was a fun experience and a very very very cold one too. Linda, Ginger, and I nearly froze walking to and from Mississippi Nights those 2 nights. I met up with Steff in St Louis finally. She's a really awesome person!!
What else what else...
I finally updated my site with about 22 more band links. So you should go check those out for the love of music. :D
That is all for now. If I missed anything important that I've told anyone reading this let me know so I can share the story.
I'm going to try to get some sleep so I can get stuff done before I head to Owensboro tomorrow.
Much Love,
Lindsay :)
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Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
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What's been going on with me?
Well, I've been going to my classes and working less than usual(not my choice).
I went home on Halloween, dressed up kinda witchy/gothy looking. I found my old fishnet and wore those...was cool. Patricia and I were dressed up but Kristen didn't dress up. We all went down to El Camino's to eat, which was very tasty, Chewy hit on me and I was trying to speak a little spanish, then some other dude I've never seen before was telling me I was pretty, he liked me, do I like him. The guy didn't speak any english and I kept saying "Huh? What's he saying?" Needless to say we finally got away.
We got Ashton for the weekend on Friday. He's grown so much since the last time I saw him. I burned a HUGE amount of cds for my uncle, which worked out since my grandmother was taking Ashton back to him on Sunday. He said he liked them all so far which is GREAT!!
Patricia told me a few days ago that Chewy was going to give her $20 for my phone number...so yeah she didn't get $20 because I wouldn't let her give him my number. I can imagine it right now..."Hello?" "Ello, lensee?" "Um, yeah? Who is this?" "Dis is Jose...Chewy...como estas?" and so on. I'm sure it'd be interesting but I have enough interesting things occuring.
Ok, so what am I up to now? I have an exam tomorrow, exam Friday, and after the exam on Friday I'm driving down to Georgia to chill with Linda and Elise for the weekend. And sadly I'll be seeing Kill Hannah on Sunday. I'm not sad to be seeing them but it'll be the last time I'll be seeing them for a LONG TIME. I need to save some money and this is the first step I must take. Let's all hope I don't cry and look like a fool on Sunday.
When I come back on Monday I'll try to update from my weekend.
I'm sure I'll have plenty of interesting things to write down.
So there you have it folks...an actual update
BUT...here's some good lyrics from this song I've been listening to a lot lately.
"Anthem of Our Dying Day" ~ Story of the Year
The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly, exactly what I need
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat cause I never, never have before
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day
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Saturday, October 25th, 2003
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| Subject: | Sharing |
| Time: | 1:23 am. |
| Mood: | contemplative. | | Music: | Ask A Stupid Question ~Days in December. |
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"Ask A Stupid Question" ~ Days In December
Savour me-yeah.
Any time I sing for you
While I float through all the times I fell in love
You feel too real. I find what's in your mind.
You fall so low. Come back before we loose it all.
Now it seems I'm alone in waiting for myself to heal
To feel so low
Dig for me down low
I gave all my gold to you
And we owe it to ourselves, for what we know
You feel too real. I find what's in your mind.
You fall so low. Come back before we loose it all.
Now it seems I'm alone in waiting for myself to heal
To feel so low
I'll break for you
This is the world within, to me
Break away the life leading me
Take from me
The taste of truth
Dead or alive
By burning up inside.
Now it seems I'm alone in waiting for myself to heal
To feel so low...
Untitled ~ Me
Feel,
Feel me in the air
I whisper out for help
It's taken by the wind
Floating away from me
Searching space for you
I'm lost here without you
Deeper down I fall
Don't leave me in this place
I just want to be
Just to be in time
Love and be loved too
Just be here with you
"Display" ~ Me
Can anyone hear?
Hear the screams out here?
Silent airy streams
Lost in the atmosphere
The breath frozen in time
The words are crystalized
A life held in stillframe
A plaque that lacks a name
A heart still on display
For all to see the pain
Battered, beaten, bruised
A soul that was abused
Now there's no feeling
Just emptiness.
"Stuck" ~ Me
It feels like I'm stuck in a blackhole
There's no way out
I keep getting pulled in
I try to run to the ends of the universe
But there's an invisible chain that stops me right at the edge
I can look over and see so much
But that is it
It's a pretty picture
But a picture is all
I need an escape
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Monday, October 20th, 2003
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New Kill Hannah cd is wonderful.
Got the Fingertight cd "In The Name of Progress", it's superb.
New AP magazine with Thursday and Thrice covers are good. I got the Thursday cover.
Saw School of Rock with Jack Black, good movie.
Bought Drop Dead Fred on DVD, still as funny as I remember.
Taken care of former debt, taken care of insurance issue, and I have to work at 4 today.
That's all in short.
I'm starting to prepare my Christmas list. Cds, cds everywhere :)
"Magical" ~ Fingertight
(For you) *piano starts*
In a minute we'll be sitting at the bar,
And for an instant we'll forget who we are.
And it happens,
And when it does it's magical.
And it happened,
And when it does it's mystical.
'Cause I'm not afraid, anymore.
'Cause I can feel you next to me.
I'm not afraid anymore.
In a time when innocence should be my right.
I'm in a battle between alcohol and my life.
And I still feel like you're here with me,
And it's magical.
'Cause I'm not afraid anymore
'Cause I can feel you next to me.
I'm not afraid anymore.
If we run without our confidence.
My confidence is already lost,
And if we run without our confidence.
My world is spinning all around,
And if we run...
'Cause I'm not afraid, anymore.
'Cause I can feel you next to me.
I'm not afraid, anymore
'Cause I'm not afraid, anymore.
'Cause I can feel you next to me.
I'm not afraid, anymore.
*sigh*
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Friday, October 10th, 2003
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Listening to Douglas for the 50 billionth time today.
Nothing exciting happened today.
Woke up, took a shower, went to class, had a granola bar(it was very tasty), took a much needed nap, got up and went to work, got off from work, and we're up to now I suppose.
My friend in my Management class was nice enough to print up our notes for me. Thank you Sean. Tomorrow I'm working then I think I'm going to Nashville with Ginger.
I don't know that I'll be writing in this anymore.
Don't expect to see updates very often.
If something interesting happens I guess I'll write up something, but that's it for now.
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