Ramblings of musically driven mind

Wow, how the time flies!!

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 16:59:45 GMT

It's been a very long time since I've posted in this.
Since then I've gotten married, moved, and I'm working (although not full time at the moment).
I read a lot of my old entry just to remember the life I used to have.
It's weird to think all that happened to me.
I do miss those days to an extent. I miss all my friends and all the fun I used to have.
Life sure changes when you graduate from school and have to really live out in the world.
Well anyway, I might start this puppy up again since it's a nice outlet for my thoughts and words.

Like OMG

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 01:30:49 GMT

I haven't updated this thing in over a YEAR!!!!
Things have changed drastically.
I graduated from Western Kentucky Univesity December of 2004, moved in with my boyfriend, moved to Lexington (Kentucky) back in February of 2005, and I'm working full time selling shoes in Dillard's. It's not fabulous or anything but it feeds me and gets the bills paid.
OH and I have a kitty and his name is Bert. It feels good to have a pet that will lick my face when I'm sleeping or sleep on me which makes me feel loved.
Johnnie and I are going strong. We're both working full time and have 1 car between the 2 of us. It makes things tricky, but we do ok.
I've become rather boring, but it's not all bad I suppose.
I was invited to go party with some people I work with. It was a "going away" outing for a co-worker who is moving and leaving the store. I didn't end up going because I worked about 10 hrs with no break today. I'm beat and sore so I'm gonna be lazy tonight with my boy and my kitty.
Alas, this brief update is complete.
Not much to say but it's been said.
I miss talking to everyone I used to, so if you haven't talked to me in awhile drop me a line sometime.
I miss EVERYONE!!
~Lindsay :)

couldn't resist...

Mon, 24 May 2004 18:07:39 GMT

I stole this from Becki's livejournal...too funny to not put in here.

My LiveJournal Sitcom
Taking Care Of xenalinx's grocer (TBS, 10:30): xenalinx (Halle Berry) discovers that toffee_apple (Sophia Loren) is taking ballet lessons. Also, lendahand (Scott Caan) unknowingly gets high before a meeting with cavefishing (Ian Holm). On the other side of town, 20:beautifulsilenc (Charo) accidentally throws away pinkrfloyd (Annette Funicello)'s motorcycle. In the next town over, indeliblemuse (Joe Pesci) causes problems at work when a file from summertime_zin (Jonathan Taylor Thomas) has a virus. That same day, sk8bad88 (Alicia Silverstone) ruins hilbillyjimcoon (Pamela Anderson Lee)'s favourite peach while house-sitting. TV-14.
What's Your LiveJournal Sitcom? (by rfreebern)

My LiveJournal Sitcom

Taking Care Of xenalinx's grocer (TBS, 10:30): xenalinx (Halle Berry) discovers that toffee_apple (Sophia Loren) is taking ballet lessons. Also, lendahand (Scott Caan) unknowingly gets high before a meeting with cavefishing (Ian Holm). On the other side of town, 20:beautifulsilenc (Charo) accidentally throws away pinkrfloyd (Annette Funicello)'s motorcycle. In the next town over, indeliblemuse (Joe Pesci) causes problems at work when a file from summertime_zin (Jonathan Taylor Thomas) has a virus. That same day, sk8bad88 (Alicia Silverstone) ruins hilbillyjimcoon (Pamela Anderson Lee)'s favourite peach while house-sitting. TV-14.

What's Your LiveJournal Sitcom? (by rfreebern)

A much needed update...sorry it took so long

Mon, 24 May 2004 17:58:16 GMT

Ok so a couple of weeks ago I set out on a 5 day long adventure.
I left here on Tuesday afternoon. I went up to spend the day and night with Johnnie.
Good times. We left on Wednesday to go to Bowling Green. It didn't take nearly as long as I thought it might. It was a good trip. We went to the mall so I could pick up my final paycheck. Picked up some grubbage and went to Josh's house where we were staying for the night. Had a lot of fun with Josh and Ginger. We woke up somewhat early the next morning because we were supposed to meet up with Elise, Linda, and Richard @ 10am. I got a call that said they were running an hour and a half late so after sitting around talking for a bit, we went to get food. They were nearly here so we grabbed food, rushed back to Josh's, met up with them at the mall, had them follow us back to Josh's to leave my jeep, and then we headed out on yet another greenwheel roadtrip.
It took us awhile as usual to get up to St Louis. Long trip but good times as always until the radio's speakers went out, and the fact that is was raining and the windshield whipers didn't work. Minor things I guess. I just enjoyed the time I got to spend with my friends and Johnnie. So yay for me. We stopped off at the hotel just to dump our stuff then we left for The Enigma Lounge. We got there and of course no one was there so we went out and got some food. Came back and stood in line for a not too long. We went in and they had some DJ's spinning (it was interesting). We sat talking and stuff til finally greenwheel got onstage. The new stuff we hadn't heard already was GREAT, the stuff we'd heard already was GREAT, and they played Identity and The End. It was a VERY good show. Talked to Ryan and Andy a bit. Apparently they are playing a show at the end of June or beginning of July. Ryan basically said that we had to come so I guess we will. Should be fun to go up there with everyone again.
We woke up and left St Louis at about 12pm that day. We made it back to Bowling Green, said our goodbyes, Johnnie and I picked up some food, filled up my jeep with gas, then headed to his house. We ended up getting there at about 1am so I just stayed up there for the night. It would have sucked to have tried to find my way back home in the dark and as tired as I was. I'm glad I did tho, it gave me more time to spend with Johnnie so I was happy. It was hard to leave, but I had to. It was a long drive home.
Since I've been home I've been kinda bored. Not much going on. I'm working on spending a weekend hanging with Johnnie again as long as my dad and mom don't freak out and tell me no. I've told my mom but she said to tell my dad and I dunno how he's gonna react...I haven't even told him about Johnnie. DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well, I'm not too worried about it actually. I just have to say "this is what I'm doing just so you know" and not worry about it.
That was quite a lengthy update I'd say. Can't really think of anything else...
I'm just happy. No school for awhile, finally getting some sleep, spending time in the sun, and having a guy that's truely wonder and I care a ton for. Life ain't so bad...I have all I need.
If I left anything out guys...let me know. I swear my mind is going...well going more than usual haha.
Hopefully my life will get more exciting and I'll have more to write about later.
Til then...
Take care, be safe and happy everyone!!!!!! <3<3<3<3<3 xxxxxxxx *MUAH*

Overloaded...

Tue, 04 May 2004 16:06:12 GMT

It's the 10am and I'm sitting here contemplating(sp?) all that is my life.
I got about 3 & 1/2 hrs of sleep last night. I couldn't stop shaking and thinking and crying. I hate to get upset like that, to where I just can't control my emotions, no matter how much someone tries to make me feel better. I don't want to feel hurt anymore because that's not how I want to live. I don't want to hurt anyone even tho it seems more and more lately I do and it's the people I care most about. I want to be more than just this person who helps everyone but can't even help herself.
After today I won't have school or work to deal with for awhile. That'll help some. I'm still dreading going home. Hopefully I can be out of the house as much as possible. I just want to go out and be happy.
I'm still trying to decide if I should go to Priscilla's wedding or not. I don't feel like she wants me there. People tell me things that she should be telling me. I've known Priscilla since the 2nd grade and now it's as if I don't know her at all. If I do go I don't want to go on my own. I think Tim Jones said it was on May 15th, so that gives me a little time to figure something out.
*sigh*
Too much Further Seems Forever isn't really helping...
"Against My Better Judgement"

With starving appetites for arguments
You remind me of a secret
I was never suppose to tell

The time is up - the veredict’s in
Everybody’s right - everybody wins
Didn’t you know you were a saint
What a shameful fall from grace
But I’ll catch you
Everybody’s waiting for
That something they can hold on to
While tripping over our own words
To self-dug graves for an excuse to fall
Cause every failure’s
Just as sweet as the last

As a dream comes
When there are many cares
So the speech of a fool
When there are many words
The sun it misses summer in winter
Didn’t you know we wear the same
The same pretentious name
Let’s trade for awhile - I’m so curious

"I Am"

I am the water
I am waves crashing on to you

I am the blank wave
I am the madness the loss the dark
The hunt the cage the race

I am rejection I am redemption
I am desire for obligation

I am forever but I can be never
If that’s what you want
I am the desert I am oasis
The strength
The weakness for arguments sake

I am one step closer for you
Please tell me when you’re through
Cause I may not be through with you
Your loss to sustain
But I will remain and true to form
If this were
The last breath I ever took
Would you take the time to look
And would you know

You could protect me
But you will kill me
When you’re through

That is the end of Further Seems Forever is making Lindsay sad theater.
Join us next time when we might just learn "How To Start A Fire".

For now I'll exit stage left,
Hope to hear an encore call me back.
To feel wanted on this low lite stage of life,
To just feel.

Wipe away the saline sadness,
Before it soaks my pillowcase.
I care too much to lay here now,
I care too much to walk away.

I don't always understand,
This pain that you feel,
The way you see this world,
But I try to because I want to.

We both have a meaning,
We both have a purpose,
We can't only help ourselves,
We can help eachother.

I'll reach out my hand,
It's for you to take if you want it.
Pain doesn't have to last forever,
If nothing else know that I care.

sigh

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 20:02:26 GMT

When the winds blow past me I lose my way
Distracted from reality watching the trees sway
Far from this life that brings me down
Yet I know that things don't get better by running away.

The past isn't the present but it rings in your ear
It's something not to dwell on but it's something we hear
Not always proud of what we do and things we regret
Neither is living for the future with things we fear.

I can see the fire that's in your eye
I know flames are fed by what I can not deny
A split second can effect an entire lifetime
Burning down the pages of our lives isn't a way to get by.

Sitting by the window looking out into the space
Makes my mind go into overdrive thinking how I ended up in this place
Sorry doesn't heal all wounds or get rid of the pain
I understand how you feel I can't even look at my own face.

I don't know what more to say.

Pure 80's comedy

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 06:35:48 GMT

Ok so there used to be this cartoon called Kidd Video and I loved it as a kiddo.
I found a site for it the other night and found the theme song...
I wanted to share these jacked up 80's lyrics with ya.

"Video to Radio"
Yeah!
It's getting me going
It's keeping me moving on
Hooked on my system
I'm playing on and on
People say I'm crazy
'Cause I'm always on my own
Hi-fi's around me
Hi-tech just turns me on
From my video to my radio

And I know what you're thinking
This Kidd is up a tree
But I'm not so crazy
Come on and follow me
Oh I'll keep on grooving
Here with my Groove Machine
I'll keep on moving
Soon you'll see what I mean
From my video to my radio

And I'm flying this til I get bored, oh....
Close Encounters with the alien storm
It's getting me rocking
It's keeping me moving on
I feel like flying
I'm totally off the wall
I'm simply saying
It's the only way to go... whoa!
From my video to my radio

And I've got this vision
The colors are changing fast
My system's hot now
I know it's going to last
People say I'm crazy
'Cause I'm always on my own
Hi-fi's around me
Hi-tech just turns me on
From my video to my radio

And I'm flying this til I get bored, oh....
Close Encounters with the alien storm
It's getting me rocking
It's keeping me moving on
I feel like flying
I'm totally off the wall
I'm simply saying
It's the only way to go... whoa!
From my video to my radio

From my video to my radio, Oh!
Video to radio, video to radio.... Oh!
Vid-e-o... to video...
Video to radio, (video) video to radio, video to radio

Yeah...it's interesting stuff innit?
I might share some more of the songs from this show.
I have a couple of episodes on video...I used to rock to them all the time.
Nothing much to really add...
Worked a ton this weekend, still haven't done a important paper, saw a movie tonight.
WOO!!
Oh well, later!!

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Fri, 16 Apr 2004 22:01:47 GMT

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By appearing nonthreatening, quiet and unassuming, you can strike at the right moment, when no one's expecting it.

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Ok those made me laugh...more later maybe.

"I remember when it all was new..."

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 19:23:48 GMT

Blue gummie bears are funky
Purple gummie bears rock
Green gummie bears are cool
Orange gummie bears will do
Yellow gummie bears are pookie poo

Yes I am just that bored.
No really I've been eating these crazy "Techno Bears" gummie bears.
I got 'em for free from work. All that is left are the blue ones. They are indeed funky and I don't really like them that much, but I wanted something fruity so I had no other choice. *shakes fist* Stupid gummies!!

There nuffin' on the telly-vision. Well this is some odd cartoon on one of the SCOLA channels. I dunno where this if from...Croatia, Japan, China, Brazil...I dunno. But there is a tiger and a cat and the cat is trying to help the tiger be more domesticated. Don't ask why I'm watching because honestly I couldn't tell you.

Random thoughts:
1)I must go see Garfield the movie when it comes out. It looks very funny and I love Garfield.
2)It's very warm outside. This is a great thing because it means summer is oh so close.
3)No more gummie bears for a week...or so.
4)The Discovery Channel should be called Crazy Interesting Channel of Stuff or CICOS for short.
5)School is nearly over...this is both a good thing and a bad thing. (for more information contact me).
AND LASTLY...
6)Pringles rock, even in dreams :)

Ok so this is all for now.
I'm gonna sleep for like 30 mins and try to dream cause that's fun.
Later,
Linds :)

Maybe

Sat, 10 Apr 2004 08:45:34 GMT

What have I done lately?
A lot and yet not much at all.

Working, schooling, feeling sick, thinking about the summer and all that jazz.

I've been out the past 2 nights. Nothing spectacular but nothing horrible either.

I saw lostprophets a few weeks ago, that was great. Good times I tell ya, good times. I talked to Lee and Stu but that was it. Was very very very very cool tho.

Late nights and early mornings...that's been life lately and I enjoy every second of it. I'm happy. Simple as. Nothing more to say.

Later,
Linds :)

LOSTPROPHETS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 18:13:41 GMT

Spring Break starts TODAY!!

Seeing lostprophets tomorrow night.
Can't WAIT!!!!!!!!

Who knows what will happen in the next few days.
Whatever does, I'll put up in here...well I might put it up in here.

It's going to be awesome, I can feel it.
Rock on, peace out, and spread the love!!!!!!

Can't wait to see lostprophets, my GA friends, but I'm gonna miss people while I'm away. I'll be back sooooooooon.

I can't write anymore cause I'm just too excited to think.

I'll see and talk to everyone soon.
*hugs**kisses*
Lindsay :)

I'm still alive muahahaha

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 12:27:08 GMT

I haven't updated in awhile.
Nothing much to blah blah about really.

School is going along ok, I love my Marketing on the World Wide Web class. Made a site that ain't too shabby.
Work is going. I don't work as much as I once did. Kinda sucks cause I could use the money for my roadtrips and whatnot.
What else is there???
Oh yeah, I'm finally gonna get to see the lostprophets!!!!!!! I think haha. I'm going to get tix for the Atlanta show tomorrow. I think I'm gonna skip out on the Chattanooga date just so I can save a few bucks gaswise and ticketwise.
I'm still working out the details and I only have til Friday to get it all worked out. Cause next week is SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm excited for what spring break might bring. Might be a really fun time for me. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

I'm really missing sleeper7 lately. I am also totally loving Cave In, Jenoah, the new lostprophets cd, Open Hand, and sooooooooo many more. Rock on my friends...til next time we meet...Spread the love ~Lindsay :)

OH YEAH...I HAVEN'T SLEPT ALL NIGHT!!!!! I'm a little hyper crazy fun right now.

Update needed...I guess

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 06:48:00 GMT

New lostprophets' cd out today.
It's good, go pick it up now!!
This is my third time listening to it all the way through.
I bought the new Incubus but I haven't even listened to it once due to the fact that I can't stop listening to new lps. Yes I know that's a little much but hey I like it so that's all that matters to me.

What's been going on with me you ask? Hmm, I say, nothing much to be honest.
I'm going to see greenwheel on Friday. I'm driving Kyle and myself up there, then we're meeting up with Linda, Dusty, & Charley and the whole Jillian's crew of people. I get to see my friend Ashley from Indiana!!!!!! Way excited, haven't seen her in forever and a day. Can't wait for good times, good friends, and greenwheel!!
It's gonna be fun time and I got a few shirts to pick from to wear. Good times.

I did buy the lostprophets cd today, the incubus cd, a tank top, button down shirt, WKU hoodie, and 2 other shirts, one of which I'll be wearing to greenwheel. I got paid today too. Very exciting to see that check in my hands. mmm money to see bands and stuff. YAY.

I'm really not that excited, I'm not I SWEAR YO!!
Ok, so I am...sue me...I like what I like and that's all there is to it.
Fun will be had or heads will roll I SAY...rollin' rollin' rollin' :)

Ok I think everyone has had enough of my mindless babbling for the time being.
Even if you haven't, I'm all out for right now. Keep refreshing this page and maybe more will pop up outta nowhere...who knows? It could work in some alternate universe. IT COULD...maybe...I dunno...it's time for sleep or something.
Much love,
Lindsay :)

Things change...maybe it's me

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 05:48:07 GMT

I'm just sitting around listening to Acceptance after a not so bad weekend.
Friday was pretty boring. I went with Ginger to the bookstore, then we went to my room and just sat around talking and whatnot. Ended up hanging out with Chris and Armondo next door. We watched a movie, got pizza, then Stephanie and Chelsey from down the hall came over and we all played cards...was interesting.
Saturday I met up with Ginger, we saw The Butterfly Effect. It was a very different movie but very good as well. Ashton Kutcher does pretty well in a serious role. After the movie we got some food, talked about random stuff, then went into work. We both had to close, which was much better than having to do it on my own.
Sunday I got up late, we'd had something of an ice storm during the night. The ice had already begun to melt. My mom actually woke me up to tell me how bad it is at home. Then when I went back to sleep(because yes I was being lazy), my friend Priscilla called me to tell me our friend Shelley's birthday party was tonight and that I should come with her. So I agreed. Up to that point, however, I did a lot of nothing. I took a shower, got some lunch, then just kinda hungout here. Then I went to Shelly's, saw her and a bunch of people I haven't seen in over a year. Was an interesting event.
That brings us to the here and now.
I've got my jammies on, I'm sitting with my "cool" red jacket on. Times aren't too bad, but there are a couple of things that could make this night better. I'm not holding my breath though.

Acceptance rocks you all!!

And so it continues...

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 08:28:39 GMT

The first week of classes...
Interesting to say the least.

Tons have gone on this week.
You know you wanna know what...but I'm not saying.
It's one of those events where stuff has happened but since I don't want to jinx anything I'm keeping most of it to myself for now. Well except for a few of you that I've talked to.

I did drop a class. It was insane!! If you want more detail ask, I've been telling everyone about it and am all told out! It's better when told in realtime and not via my lj.

Right now I'm jamming to Aconite Thrill's E.R.N.I.E ...it's cool yo.
And now I'm listening to Kaddisfly's Manhattan Loves You and I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!

So anywhoit...
Don't know what I'm doing this week other than working.
Hopefully something fun will come around.
I'm seeing greenwheel February 6th...if I get around to getting my ticket.
Wanted to go see Thursday in Nashville but they sold out before I got tix...*sniffle*

I'm going to try to keep my lj updated...if at all possible.
So look for more updates from me...I know you are all dying to know of my life.

Dude!! I'm totally updating!!!!

Sat, 10 Jan 2004 08:27:51 GMT

It's been WAY too long since I've updated.

I've been here and there.
Seen a few bands...here and there.
Had a decent Christmas and a not horrible but not wonderful New Year.

I really need to sleep at the moment or I'd write a huge novel of an update.
I just can't right now.

I do start back to class on Monday...but not until 11:15am. I'm so happy to not have an 8am class AT ALL!!!!!
I will have a night class which I'm sure I'll hate since it's a Business writing course. That is not going to be fun at all. I have 15 hours this semester and if all goes well I'll graduate in December of this year. Which is both an exciting and very scary thought for me right now.
I've got so much on my mind and heart right now. If anyone were to study me right now, they'd probably think I'd lost my mind and have me seek professional help. No I haven't really lost my mind, there's just so much to think about. My mind's going a mile a minute and I'm telling myself things that might not be true.

Oh well, as I always say "things will work out!!"

Today was my first day back to work since 2 days before Christmas. Nothing new with good ol Candy Craze. Although for the first time in a very long time I didn't eat anything in that store or even have a little bit of an Icee. I was so proud of myself. I'm going to lose weight somehow. I'm starting by not eating so many gummi strawberries at work. I'm going to be doing more than just that but I don't have an actual plan.
Tomorrow I'm going to Owensboro. I'm gonna go see my friend Howie's band play at CommonGround. If you're around Owensboro, KY come down for the show. Doors @ 7, Show @ 8. Hopefully it'll be really fun.
Sunday I open and close the store. I'm going to be so tired...like I am right now.

I'm trying to think if anything really important happened...
David, the drummer from Revis, remembered me in Atlanta which really shocked me. Was really cool though. Went to St Louis' VH1 Save the Music event back in December. It was a fun experience and a very very very cold one too. Linda, Ginger, and I nearly froze walking to and from Mississippi Nights those 2 nights. I met up with Steff in St Louis finally. She's a really awesome person!!
What else what else...
I finally updated my site with about 22 more band links. So you should go check those out for the love of music. :D

That is all for now. If I missed anything important that I've told anyone reading this let me know so I can share the story.
I'm going to try to get some sleep so I can get stuff done before I head to Owensboro tomorrow.

Much Love,
Lindsay :)

Finally.......an update

Wed, 05 Nov 2003 18:22:33 GMT

What's been going on with me?

Well, I've been going to my classes and working less than usual(not my choice).
I went home on Halloween, dressed up kinda witchy/gothy looking. I found my old fishnet and wore those...was cool. Patricia and I were dressed up but Kristen didn't dress up. We all went down to El Camino's to eat, which was very tasty, Chewy hit on me and I was trying to speak a little spanish, then some other dude I've never seen before was telling me I was pretty, he liked me, do I like him. The guy didn't speak any english and I kept saying "Huh? What's he saying?" Needless to say we finally got away.
We got Ashton for the weekend on Friday. He's grown so much since the last time I saw him. I burned a HUGE amount of cds for my uncle, which worked out since my grandmother was taking Ashton back to him on Sunday. He said he liked them all so far which is GREAT!!

Patricia told me a few days ago that Chewy was going to give her $20 for my phone number...so yeah she didn't get $20 because I wouldn't let her give him my number. I can imagine it right now..."Hello?" "Ello, lensee?" "Um, yeah? Who is this?" "Dis is Jose...Chewy...como estas?" and so on. I'm sure it'd be interesting but I have enough interesting things occuring.

Ok, so what am I up to now? I have an exam tomorrow, exam Friday, and after the exam on Friday I'm driving down to Georgia to chill with Linda and Elise for the weekend. And sadly I'll be seeing Kill Hannah on Sunday. I'm not sad to be seeing them but it'll be the last time I'll be seeing them for a LONG TIME. I need to save some money and this is the first step I must take. Let's all hope I don't cry and look like a fool on Sunday.

When I come back on Monday I'll try to update from my weekend.
I'm sure I'll have plenty of interesting things to write down.

So there you have it folks...an actual update

BUT...here's some good lyrics from this song I've been listening to a lot lately.

"Anthem of Our Dying Day" ~ Story of the Year

The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly, exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat cause I never, never have before

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

Sharing

Sat, 25 Oct 2003 06:31:04 GMT

"Ask A Stupid Question" ~ Days In December
Savour me-yeah.
Any time I sing for you
While I float through all the times I fell in love
You feel too real. I find what's in your mind.
You fall so low. Come back before we loose it all.
Now it seems I'm alone in waiting for myself to heal
To feel so low
Dig for me down low
I gave all my gold to you
And we owe it to ourselves, for what we know
You feel too real. I find what's in your mind.
You fall so low. Come back before we loose it all.
Now it seems I'm alone in waiting for myself to heal
To feel so low
I'll break for you
This is the world within, to me
Break away the life leading me
Take from me
The taste of truth
Dead or alive
By burning up inside.
Now it seems I'm alone in waiting for myself to heal
To feel so low...

Untitled ~ Me
Feel,
Feel me in the air
I whisper out for help
It's taken by the wind
Floating away from me
Searching space for you
I'm lost here without you
Deeper down I fall
Don't leave me in this place
I just want to be
Just to be in time
Love and be loved too
Just be here with you

"Display" ~ Me
Can anyone hear?
Hear the screams out here?
Silent airy streams
Lost in the atmosphere
The breath frozen in time
The words are crystalized
A life held in stillframe
A plaque that lacks a name
A heart still on display
For all to see the pain
Battered, beaten, bruised
A soul that was abused
Now there's no feeling
Just emptiness.

"Stuck" ~ Me
It feels like I'm stuck in a blackhole
There's no way out
I keep getting pulled in
I try to run to the ends of the universe
But there's an invisible chain that stops me right at the edge
I can look over and see so much
But that is it
It's a pretty picture
But a picture is all
I need an escape

They found an ocean in my head

Mon, 20 Oct 2003 17:06:47 GMT

New Kill Hannah cd is wonderful.
Got the Fingertight cd "In The Name of Progress", it's superb.
New AP magazine with Thursday and Thrice covers are good. I got the Thursday cover.
Saw School of Rock with Jack Black, good movie.
Bought Drop Dead Fred on DVD, still as funny as I remember.
Taken care of former debt, taken care of insurance issue, and I have to work at 4 today.
That's all in short.

I'm starting to prepare my Christmas list. Cds, cds everywhere :)

"Magical" ~ Fingertight
(For you) *piano starts*
In a minute we'll be sitting at the bar,
And for an instant we'll forget who we are.
And it happens,
And when it does it's magical.
And it happened,
And when it does it's mystical.
'Cause I'm not afraid, anymore.
'Cause I can feel you next to me.
I'm not afraid anymore.
In a time when innocence should be my right.
I'm in a battle between alcohol and my life.
And I still feel like you're here with me,
And it's magical.
'Cause I'm not afraid anymore
'Cause I can feel you next to me.
I'm not afraid anymore.
If we run without our confidence.
My confidence is already lost,
And if we run without our confidence.
My world is spinning all around,
And if we run...
'Cause I'm not afraid, anymore.
'Cause I can feel you next to me.
I'm not afraid, anymore
'Cause I'm not afraid, anymore.
'Cause I can feel you next to me.
I'm not afraid, anymore.

*sigh*

b is the new way

Sat, 11 Oct 2003 04:56:39 GMT

Listening to Douglas for the 50 billionth time today.
Nothing exciting happened today.
Woke up, took a shower, went to class, had a granola bar(it was very tasty), took a much needed nap, got up and went to work, got off from work, and we're up to now I suppose.
My friend in my Management class was nice enough to print up our notes for me. Thank you Sean. Tomorrow I'm working then I think I'm going to Nashville with Ginger.
I don't know that I'll be writing in this anymore.
Don't expect to see updates very often.
If something interesting happens I guess I'll write up something, but that's it for now.

Where am I?

Wed, 08 Oct 2003 02:34:01 GMT

Life has been CRAZY since the last journal entry.

Elise, Linda, and I drove all the to Iowa for Elise's 21st birthday. We drove up there to see Kill Hannah play a show. Well, let me tell ya, we found out like 30 mins from the venue that the boys cancelled the show due to transportation issues.
3 angry girls(one a birthday girl), in a car, in Iowa is not a good combo.
So instead we found out how to get to St Louis, drove down there, found a Lonestar to eat at, Elise got some yum yum alcohol, and then we drove home. It was a bitter sweet trip. Kill Hannah disappointed us.

So anyway, I worked Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday cause Linda, Elise, and I were leaving for St Louis on Wednesday night after I got off work. After work I got all my stuff together and was actually ready when they got here. We had a decent trip to St Louis, got to the Fairfield Inn early so we got to sleep for awhile. It was nice. We got to see The Adored and Kill Hannah at Mississippi Nights Thursday night. It was a great show, I got to drink a shot of tequilla(yuck) and a shot of vodka(much nicer) and I wanted them to let me dance on the bar, but they didn't let me. That would have been funny, but oh well.
We watched the Adored play(wasn't as good as it's been before), then we saw Kill Hannah. Boys played a pretty good show. Jon was all up in my face with his guitar several times. And I got to hear Welcome To Chicago...oh yeah.
We talked to all the guys minus Greg who was at the bar when we left. All the guys were really nice and knew that we'd went ALL the way to Iowa and apologized for it. Made us feel a bit better.
We went to get The Adored 8-song cd and Derek(the bassist) was up there. We started talking to him and he looked at me. He recognized me, "I know you, where have I seen you before?" and that was cool. No one ever remembers me usually when I'm with Elise and Linda. They get recognized before me but not this time. We had a great convo with him and Brian from The Adored is too funny and sarcastic.
Best part of this all is that Derek convinced us to stay in St Louis for 2 more days to see them play the next night and....
*drum roll*
GREENWHEEL ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He said he'd help get Linda in on Friday night and she was going to ask Andy from greenwheel about getting her in on Saturday. So everything worked out, we got to talk to ALL of The Adored on Friday night, saw greenwheel on Saturday and got to talk to a few of them. They did an AWESOME job, all new songs. Good stuff, good stuff.
We got invited to an after party but instead of going we drove all the way to North Carolina to see Kill Hannah at the Weenie Roast there. So we paid like $32 for 6 Kill Hannah songs, but we talked to them a bit in their singing booth, they were cool to us, I got to see Trapt again, but kinda felt like they didn't care much. OH well. It happens, we move on.
I got back here at like 2:45pm on Monday, went to work, ate something, checked email, and then went to bed.

That's about it, but if you want to know more then ask.
This is all I can write now.

this is how it feels calling out but no one hears...

Tue, 23 Sep 2003 05:12:10 GMT

Ok so I just spent an hour writing up everything that's been going on in my life lately.
Livejournal lost everything that I had typed up, one-handed might I add.
Basically it has sucked and I tried to tell about everything, even the very few good things.
Well since I'm not spending another hour, here's a condensed version since I can't remember everything I typed.

My hand is wrapped and there is a splint on my finger.
I did well on my quiz in Finance I think.
I don't have my 8am class tomorrow(Tuesday).
I have an exam I'm not ready for tomorrow.
Things could be worse but surely they won't get that way.

The pain is constant,
I live and breathe it.
Drain away this stress,
Let it flow out of my pores.
My life has become a blackhole,
Light cannot escape and is forever destroyed.
I need an outstretched arm to grasp,
Pull me from this wreck,
and help me recover what I've lost.

I have the fingers I can cross crossed for a good day tomorrow.
I'm kinda hoping my prince charming will show up at work and take me far far away so I can relax for a little while. Unrealistic I know but maybe in a dream so I can be happy when I wake up. *sigh*

xsafex

Unlucky

Sat, 20 Sep 2003 04:39:13 GMT

I've been having some tough times lately.

I'm taking on too much, it's getting me stressed out.
I've been having exams that haven't been going well, too much work(getting called in early), and just an overwhelming amount of stuff in my head that is just too much to deal with right now.

Thank you to those who have tried to help me out. It means a lot.

And to those of you who didn't know, I busted a blood vessel in my hand yesterday at work. It's much better today, still black and blue but not as ugly and swollen.
The lady that usually checks me out at Subway even said "You're just an unlucky girl," so see people I'm not lying when I tell you this. Even the Subway lady agrees and I didn't say I was unlucky, she did. Crazy isn't it?
At this point I'm just looking forward to October. Bring it on please. I need some Kill Hannah shows, a trip to Georgia, and maybe(hopefully) a trip to Louisana.

Ok, so that's all I have for now.
Hopefully my next entry will be a happier one.
(well I did kinda get hit on in the store today by a very good looking guy, but that doesn't count. It was just unexpected.)

..."I'm sorry the party you have dialed is no longer on the line. If you would like to make another call please hang up and try again. Thank you."

Red flashing lights are telling me that everything is not alright in here...

Mon, 15 Sep 2003 05:19:30 GMT

This week has sucked a big one.
Like the biggest one imaginable.

I have worked so much this week.
I even worked when I wasn't supposed to.
I know that means my paycheck will be a nice one, but I have to pay everyone that I owe money.
Cause I'm not one of those people that borrows money and never pays people back.
That's the people that borrow from me usually(but not always).

So anywhositwhatsit....
I have had no time to myself during the school week.
I have wanted to sleep and haven't.
It's just been crap.

Today however was not too bad overall.
My stomach is killing me however, so I'm not going to go into details.
Today was the best day of my week, we'll leave it at that.

I must sleep!!
Oh I just remembered I have a quiz, I'm in trouble.
OH GREAT!!
Oh well, I'm sleeping.

NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last week's events

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 17:54:50 GMT

I didn't get much sleep on that Monday.
I got in late, I tried to check my email, chat it up with some friends, someone in my bed, etc.
So as usual I got to sleep late.

I was tired, mad tired all day.
I don't even remember if I got a nap in that day or not.
It's all a blur.

Tuesday...I went to class, got some food, went to work at 1pm til 9 something that night.
It was a long freakin' day. I didn't get any sleep.

Wednesday...I don't even remember what I did. I know I went to class, got some food, might have taken a nap but I don't remember. Pretty bad isn't it?

Ok I remember Thursady. I went to classes, got back and packed up my stuff to head down to Knoxville, TN. I got my direction and cds. I tried to get money from the ATM, but I couldn't use it. Instead I had to get gas using my debit card and pray the amount of cash I had would get me through this trip. I got stuck in traffic close to my exit in Knoxville. I finally got there, parked right next to Elise and Linda. They came and met me, we walked down to the place. It was outside. The show was free I think but I gave a $3 donation. We got right up front(even though it wasn't hard to). We were the only ones there that knew the words to the KH songs. We asked Wooter for setlists but he didn't get them for us after the show. I got this extremely nasty watered down sprite that ended up having something unidentifiable in the bottom of the cup. Needless to say I threw it away. We hung out next to the guy's merch area. I danced, sang, embarrassed Linda, you know the usual. We talked to everyone, I got pictures with Garret(who called me "the infamous Lindsay), Greg, and Jon. It was a great time. We kinda got convinced to come to Champaign, IL the next night. Well we didn't know times and stuff but Garret was great enough to go ask Paris and come back and tell us. We missed Guster and went ahead and left to head to my dorm. We had many pitstops. We had to stop for gas and food, not to mention we dealt with a lot of traffic right after we got on the road. We FINALLY got to my dorm at like 1 something am. Got to sleep at 2 something.

I was planning on going to class the next morning. Instead I did my laundry, got and cashed my check from work, got a few pictures developed. I went back to my dorm, packed a small bag then we left for Illinois!!

The drive was long, but we had some good times(energy drinks ROCK!!)
After about 6 or so hours on the road we got to Champaign. Got a decent parking spot for free. Walked down to the venue, saw Greg first, walked around a corner, then came back and saw Mat and Wooter. Talked to Mat for a short period of time(he made fun of our accents but it was cool). We ended up talking with this guy who's actually from Chicago. When they finally let us in he hung out with us. He had some awesome pictures of KH and asked me if I would take pictures for him that night. Me being me, I said of course.

The first band, can't remember their name, was really interesting. I kinda liked their style but it was very different. Kill Hannah's set was kickass, they played Hyperactive and Love Sick. The guy I was taking pictures for was videotaping the show!! Afterwards I got one of Garret's drumsticks. It was awesome. He signed it and remembered my name. It was great!! Talked to Jon(I told him happy early birthday) and he hugged us. Talked to Dan very briefly, talked to Mat and got hugs. Linda and I talked to Greg. We both got shirts(I got the long sleeve jersey which I used later on). We had a great talk with him but then we had to go *sniffle*
I drove most of the way back. We stopped off and got food(and I put on my shirt cause I was freezing!!) and gas at a couple of points. I couldn't stay awake though. I fell asleep very very very briefly a couple of times when Linda and Elise were both asleep. I hit an already dead animal, that freaked me out. After like 3.5 hrs Elise had to take over cause I couldn't do it. We ended up sleeping in the parking lot of a motel in Elizabethtown(like 1.5 hrs from Bowling Green).
After all that, I got home, packed up stuff again and went home for Saturday and Sunday.
I got to see my newest kittens who are running around. So cute!!
I seriously slept for 14 hours that night. It was very nice.
And like I requested we got to go to the bestest brunch in the world the next morning. They have the best baked fish. MMM was so good.
After we got back from that I packed up my stuff, mom made me some bread to take back, and I had my dad check my tires. After all that my mom offered to pay for my gas!! $1.39 per gallon, not bad. From the gas station we went to my grandmother's where I helped my mom move something for my aunt. I finally got to leave home and head back to school. I got back later than I would have liked to. Still I got back safe and sound. So yay.

Monday my first class was cancelled and I worked from 4-9:30, Tuesday I went to classes and then went to work from 5-9:45, and Today my first class was cancelled again and I have to be at work at 4.

Exciting stuff I tell ya.

That's about it. If I missed something Elise or Linda can comment.

I'm gonna take a nap now and then go to work!!